Friday, February 18, 2011

ive decided not to post until i reach my first  goal because this is not ok. ive binged on cereal the last two days and so today my weight was 104 which isnt as bad as it could have been... but it shouldnt have been up at all!

i need to get to 98. fast.

im still going to try to comment... which i know ive been bad  at lately so i apologize!

anyhow, see you guys on  the skinny side! ;)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

102.8, 10.3 % fat

I must not go back to 103. I must not go back to 103...

Never again.

Why, hello, Miranda! Fancy seeing you today. (I'm REALLY tired. Can you tell?)

So, yesterday I had a dessert day: 250 cal of real food, 800 cal of vegan chocolates. LOL. It was pretty awesome AND I stayed wthin my happy 1000 (or below!) to 1100 range.


I'm gonna go before I make even more of an arse of myself ;)

Have a WONDERFUL day, everyone!!!


PS. I'm going to get caught up on your blogs! It's gonna happen!

Monday, February 14, 2011

103.6 lbs, 10.8% fat (again)

Happy Valentine's Day! I guess after years of abuse my body has finally decided to rebel.

C'est la vie.

So I was leaving my room to go shower when I discovered a Mr. Goodbar chilling out atop my dry-erase board. I chucked it down the hallway; my dormmates must think I'm insane!

PS. If you don't have a special someone, I'll be your Valentine! My mom is mine, so... yeah. ;)

Saturday, February 12, 2011

103.6 lbs, 10.8% fat

That fat just ain't budging.

Other than that, thank goodness I'm back in the 103s!!! I've been eating waaay too much (1300-1500 cal) and a lot of it is ver fiberous.... why am I so damn self-destructive?

But yesterday I had a net of 1050 and I am DETERMINED to get back on track... especially because I shall have an interview next week and I need to look my very best!

So I've been going through your blogs to get all caught up... there's something immensely sad about finding out that someone left the blogging world. A few people did, actually, while I was gone. I mean, it's good if they leave to go into recovery. That right there is bravery. But I feel like all too often it means descending deeper into the rabbit hole.

Intentional or not.

What I'm getting at is that we, for better or worse, are each other's support systems for this shared facit of our lives. I discovered blogging two years ago but it feels like its been much longer because I can't imagine, at this point, leaving this world behind. For me, that would mean suffering in silence, and that's something that no one should have to do.


Thursday, February 10, 2011

104 lbs, 10.8% fat

so by my calculaions I'm holding onto an extra 10 pounds that aren't really necessary...


anyhow, this is pretty sub-par and tomorrow I MUST be back into the 103s or I'm going to have a meltdown. Seriously.

 was thinking about when I left for college... I was 96 pounds then! And a whole lot of that was muscle. I NEED to get back to that. I can't be one of those freshman 15 stereotypes.

so I'm going to get back to that. By April. By the Yule Ball. (Yes, Harry Potter fans. The YULE-frickin'-BALL!!! <3) There will be dresses and cameras and therefore I need to look fabulous. Amazing.

And what if D is there? Perhaps I can win him once and for all!

(I saw him, by the way. Very briefly, but it was nice. And he smelled really good)  ;)

P.S I WILL catch up on all of your blogs! I'm sensing a free afternoon today... :)

P.P.S please remind me to NEVER eat dried fruit ever again. It tastes good, but it reeks so much havoc; it simply isn't worth it.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Hi! Hi!

Don't worry, I have not been abducted by aliens! The new semester has started so I'm back at college and it's been kind of crazy. I wasn't too involved last semester, so now I'm getting involved in all these things and it's kind of overwhelming!

Anyhow, I've been doing pretty well since I've been back (aside from this past Tues-Thurs, but I pretty much made up for it calorie-wise yesterday, so I'm feeling alright!) but I'm going to start blogging again because I miss all of you!!!

I'm sorry I haven't been here/ there for the past couple of weeks; how have all of you been?